Looking in the mirror, I witnessed my own emotional pain as a "physical art form," and as this honest messenger transformed in front of my eyes, I healed from a devastating disease. By age 37 I felt successful in my new clothes, home and car. I was hired when companies needed help in solving complex business problems, and my normal workday averaged 12 to 14 hours.
Then one day it was all over. I was in a specialist's office being diagnosed with rosacea, an incurable, deforming, disfiguring facial skin disease. Treating myself like an infallible machine had caught up with me. The disease had no mercy as it continued to worsen for the next six years. I spent all my financial resources going from medical specialists to naturopathic practitioners, in my heart begging to understand how my immune system could heal and repair.
I believed in the body being in its own environment and chose not to take any form of medication. After I had spoken to over fifty doctors, I still found myself searching for the answers. I became determined in proving that there was something that could help me heal myself naturally, but after all this time I maybe doubted myself.
By age 42 my face was a bright, fire engine red, raw and inflamed, and I lanced boils daily. I loss a major part of my eyesight and was no longer able to read or drive. All my dreams of having a good life, leadership, and travel appeared to be over. I realized why people with so much internal pain ended their lives or took up addictions.
A few years later I went to visit a Chinese doctor who diagnosed me with something different from the other physicians. He believed the disease was not simply just my face, but included the natural biological rhythms of my body being out of harmony. He said this resulted in my face being directly affected due to emotional fear and stress. Also, he saw other signs that my body was exhausted when he examined me. He said that my body looked frail, and that I should find peace at whatever price. I was so glad that he had given me a different opinion.
After I had spoken with the doctor I looked at my emotional therapy. I first looked at the different fears that I had which affected me since I had been diagnosed, and I also went back further through my past. I looked at myself in the mirror and looked at what I had done to cause this disease - which had been caused by being a workaholic. And, when I looked back I see that I denied many different personal things in life. Also, had felt worthless and needed to push the addiction forward. I had the thought of staying busy but this resulted in my own exhaustion and consequently caused me to feel angry and resentful. Through the years I had served others which negatively impacted on my life and I failed to do anything until my friend stepped in.
After sharing my story for over a year, after crying and trying to release pent-up emotions and an addiction to work in the local community I came across a miracle. I healed physically without scars and the sight in my eyes returned to normal. I had been on a healthy diet and exercise regularly for years which helped my body in the transformation. It was a program that I had worked out for myself that helped my body heal naturally and I did not have to take medications.
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